Testimonies, stories, poetry, and rants from a girl with a lot of thoughts and a big imagination.
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Confessions of a Pittsburgh Missionary: The Last One
Friday, July 25, 2014
Confessions of a Pittsburgh Missionary: Witnessing Transformation
Week 10: July 20-26, 2014
My week of ministry actually started on the weekend as I was able to serve with my church at Light of Life Rescue Mission on the North Side. It was good to get out of my comfort zone a little and be stretched in serving in a way that’s not so easy to do. And then Sunday morning the ministry continued. Many of the members of our church were away at church camp and so there were only about twenty of us on Sunday morning. After the sermon we gathered around each other and prayed over each other for different needs. We prayed over one lady who was particularly burdened and hurt. As we prayed, I asked God to give me an encouraging word to share with her. God did give it to me and I delivered it to her right after prayer time was over. It was so encouraging to me when she told me that the exact phrase that had been in my message was what God had been speaking to her about. I have had opportunities to prophesy over people before, but it is not so often that those words are confirmed. When they are confirmed it is even more exciting because you know for sure that God chose to use you to share his words with someone else. And that’s exciting! I was humbled and blessed to be able to be used by God in this way to deliver an encouraging and confirming word to a sister in Christ.
Then the week got off to a start! This was the busiest week of the summer so far with four different clubs. I was feeling a little nervous going into this week because Chloe and I were going to have to handle the clubs on our own. I put out a request for help to Westmoreland County and one of their missionaries, Mary Cooper, graciously volunteered to help out. It was great to have her around to help Chloe and me out. We had two clubs in the morning in Crawford and Harrison Village in McKeesport, then we had a house club in East Pittsburgh, and then we had a VBS in Shadyside. It was a busy week but I think this was one of my favorite weeks so far. We reached over 75 kids, saw 15 of them give their lives to Christ for the first time, counseled several others for assurance or answered other questions, gave away 9 Bibles, and signed 8 kids up for the CEF mailbox club. So to date, CEF Pittsburgh has reached about 230 kids this summer and we have seen 32 children give their lives to Christ.
Our first club was in Crawford Village. This was a pretty good bunch of kids. From what I have gathered by talking to some other ministries in the area, groups come in pretty often to work with these kids. We held the program at a YMCA there right after a free meal program. We reached thirty kids there. These kids were thinkers, I had the opportunity to lead five of them to Christ and that was exciting. But most days our counseling time was used to answer the multitude of questions kids had. “Why doesn’t God always answer prayers?” “Can God make me a NBA player?” And there were others even harder than that! There were also leaders in the room with them that also heard the gospel. I smiled on the last day when we were singing a song and I looked over to see that one of the leaders was singing along while she worked on something else. As you pray, don’t pray that only the children would come to know Christ but that the leaders and parents we come across would as well.
Next was Harrison Village. We arrived on the first day and were a bit surprised to discover that there was no structured program for us to partner with. Our hostess had not realized until that day that they are in between buildings and without a summer program for the kids. There was a free lunch program going on however. So we went over, tried to get kids to participate with a game, but we couldn’t get anyone but a young girl to come play. We tried to continue with the young girl, but it was very hard to hold her attention because there were many people milling around the facility. Some of the girls that had refused to play were sitting in a doorway near to us. One little girl called out while we were in the middle of talking to the little girl, “Can I play?” We figured she was messing with us, so we tried to ignore her, but she kept at it. Finally I said, “Yes, come on over here and sit down.” I watched her to see how she’d respond, she didn’t move and instead she yelled, “Sike! I DON’T wanna play!” A passing by adult made her apologize to us shortly after but needless to say we ended early and left feeling very discouraged.
The first day had been a disaster! But I didn’t want to just give up on those kids… they clearly needed to know about Jesus. So we got to brainstorming ways we could still minister to these kids that were hesitant to participate. I figured it wouldn’t do any good to try and make them sit through a structured program and we probably needed to build some relationships first. So I went and got some face painting and the next day we planned on playing games only. The kids were gathered in the gym again and we called out to them offering to paint their faces. Many of them were reluctant to come participate because they were gathered around a movie. But the same little girl that had mockingly yelled at us the day before, anxiously ran forward to have her face painted. I learned that her name was Sanai. As I painted her face, I went through the wordless book with her. Sanai asked Jesus to clean her heart from sin that day and gave her life to God. We gave her a Bible and I painted a few more faces and then we were on our way feeling a little better about the club. We went back the next day and this time kids were looking forward to face painting and other games. We also brought nail polish for the girls. Mary painted nails, I painted faces, Chloe started off playing sports with boys but eventually had to help with face painting. Kids were coming out of the wood work! Kids were getting their faces painted, leaving and telling their friends, and bringing more back with them. I shared the wordless book as I painted with many and was able to lead two other children to the Lord that day. Sanai was there again and informed me that she was going to a VBS at a church and had started reading her Bible. She now seemed to have a genuine desire to learn more about God. We had so many kids that we stayed twice as long as we were supposed to! These kids had wanted nothing to do with us two days before, now they didn’t want us to leave. Thursday we returned with games to play but planned on trying to incorporate a circle time to share the gospel with the kids. We played kickball and hand clapping games with a few kids and then gathered around in a circle. Chloe shared her testimony with the kids. Most of them had already accepted the Lord but they were still very attentive to Chloe’s story. When Chloe asked them if they had believed in Jesus to save them from their sins, Sanai got a wide smile on her face and raised her hand, excited to show the other kids that she had done this. It was so amazing to me to see the transformation in her in just a few short days! She went from mocking us to reading her Bible and telling others. I have had the opportunity to lead many children to Christ, but I have never seen as dramatic a transformation in a child in such a short time as I saw in Sanai. The last day we returned and played with play dough, sidewalk chalk, and some board games. This time they were anxious to see us and came running forward to see what we would do today. This was one of the hardest club locations I have ever been to, but even though we weren’t able to do a structured 5-Day Club program, those kids still stole my heart. It also helped me learn the value of building some relationship when doing ministry. I think Harrison Village was probably one of my favorite locations this summer. Pray that Sanai would continue to grow in her faith.
On Monday, Wednesday, and Friday we had a house club in East Pittsburgh. This was a smaller crew of mostly saved kids but we still had a good time. These kids gave us lots of laughs. One day while I presenting the missions moment about the CEF Missionary we are sponsoring, I asked, “Do you guys remember who this is?” And one little boy called out, “That’s the guy we have to give all that money to!” The honesty of a child is a beautiful thing and should be cherished. He gave us all a good laugh. We hope to be back there next summer and maybe do a couple monthly clubs throughout the year there. The hostess shared with me that she wants to try and build relationships with the children in her neighborhood which is a great thing!
And Monday through Thursday we helped at a VBS at Third Presbyterian Church in Shadyside. The kids there were dramatically different than the ones we had in the McKeesport clubs, but they were equally as lovable. We had a lot of fun with them. I know God must have given us energy for this club because there is no way we could’ve been so energized by our own power. We weren’t seeing much of a response all week from this group at counseling time in spite of having a lot of fun with them. But on the last night when I gave the invitation I was able to lead six of them to the Lord. I was surprised to see that several of the children that came back were actually teen helpers making a first time decision for the Lord (once again, pray for the leaders as well). The coordinator of the VBS had the kids write on large pieces of paper the first day. There was a “What do you know about God?” category, a “What do you want to know about God?” category and on the last day they filled out the “What did you learn about God?” category. It was good to see some of the responses. It was evident to me that they really had learned something which always makes me feel better about the ministry I am doing.
God is doing great things through CEF in Pittsburgh! Keep praying for us as we fight the enemy and try to reach lost children with the gospel. By the way, I love my job! I feel blessed almost every day to be able to be doing this kingdom work in Pittsburgh for the Lord.
Monday, July 21, 2014
Confessions of a Pittsburgh Missionary: A Cultural Experience
Nikki teaching the memory verse at our club in Braddock.
Friday, July 11, 2014
Confessions of a Pittsburgh Missionary: Trusting God in Sickness and Success
Saturday, July 5, 2014
Confessions of a Pittsburgh Missionary: A New Experience
Confessions of a Pittsburgh Missionary
A New Experience
Week 7: June 29-July 5, 2014
This past week working with CEF was a week of new experiences. Because of the shortened holiday week, I wasn't able to book any clubs in Pittsburgh. So we had already been planning on going over to Westmoreland County again to work with them. Cathy, their director, books this week in a nursing home. So obviously, this was not our usual audience. In fact this was on the complete opposite spectrum of our usual audience.
So Chloe, AJ (who was back and able to work with us this week), and I all went over to work at this nursing home with the residents there. The residents gathered, and the summer missionaries put on the club as they normally would. This was extremely out of my comfort zone as I am not very gifted in the area of ministering to and working with elderly people. But just because you're not particularly gifted at something, is no excuse not to minister.
The residents, while not necessarily able to respond as well or do some of the motions with us, still loved the program. On the last day we were there, we had several calling out, "They should put you kids on TV!" Lots of the summer missionaries were able to relate to the residents very well. By day three, we had a hard time pulling them away so we could leave. AJ really related with a woman named Ethel, that was special to him since his grandma had been named Ethel. And Chloe, the extrovert that she is, talked and prayed with several different residents.
To my knowledge, we had no reported salvations as a result of going to the nursing home. But we shared the gospel every day and many residents and nurses were there to hear it. I firmly believe that many seeds were planted as a result of our obedience to share the gospel with people of all ages.
Next week feels like a more official start to the summer ministry. We'll be on our own as we're not planning on partnering for anymore clubs with Westmoreland County. Pray as Chloe, AJ, and I start working on our own now. Pray that we would have the opportunity to lead many children to Christ. Pray that we would have good turn outs at all of pur clubs. And pray that we'd jave energy to make through the weeks as we have a busy schedule ahead of us with 2 or more clubs a week. Keep praying!
Friday, June 27, 2014
Confessions of a Pittsburgh Missionary: When Nothing Goes Right
Week 7: June 22-28
I’m going to be honest (this series is called confessions after all), this week was very discouraging and challenging. Chloe and I were so excited for our first club that was supposed to be in the home of a young mother who attends my church. We got to the club and no children showed up. Chloe and I decided to use the time instead to walk the neighborhood, knock on some doors, and invite some kids. We put out flyers, I sent out Facebook messages to some people, and we did everything we could think to do. Still we went back the next day, prayed for children to show up, but none did. I decided it would be best not to continue with the club as this was supposed to be our hands-on second week of training and it’s hard to get practice doing a club when there are no kids. So instead we decided to spend the rest of the week working with Westmoreland County at their club. The problem was solved but it was still a very discouraging start to the summer. We were excited to minister to some kids and apply everything we had learned at training, and then not a single kid showed up.
Nevertheless, we continued on with the week in Westmoreland County. Wednesday morning I was supposed to meet Cathy, the director of Westmoreland County CEF, at a church so she could lead us to the club. Well I was already running late picking up Chloe. Then to make it worse, I missed my exit and didn’t notice until I was fifteen miles further down the road. Then I had to drive another twenty to the destination. Not to mention, there is road work all over the Greater Pittsburgh area this summer! And we got there late and barely in enough time for Chloe to teach the memory verse. It was very stressful and I was pretty flustered that morning. We went to some extra training after the club with the Westmoreland team at a park. We had just finished eating lunch together when it started downpouring. Chloe and I decided to leave before roads flooded and so we didn’t get to stay as long as I’d hoped. Our feet were soaked and I drove very carefully back to the Greater Pittsburgh area. Thankfully we got there safely, but it just added more to my already stressful day.
We returned to my church and Chloe attempted an evaluation for one of her Bible lessons. It wasn’t that she did a bad job, she just missed a lot of the application and gospel points CEF puts into lessons. So she didn’t pass. I could see that she was extremely frustrated and discouraged. I tried to encourage her but I wasn’t really sure how to help her. I dropped her off and I think we were both feeling very frustrated and discouraged after the events of the day. That was up until Wednesday of this week. Things weren’t going very well at all. I remember being in the car on one of the drives feeling like God wasn’t answering any of my prayers like I wanted him to. I knew God heard my prayers and was answering me (Jeremiah 33:3) but he wasn’t answering with a “Yes!” like I really wanted him to. It was a very discouraging first half of the week. NOTHING had gone the way I had wanted it to and it seemed like everything was going wrong.
But then Thursday came and things started to get turned around. Cathy was able to help her missionaries and Chloe with links which also helped them a lot with gospel applications. Chloe worked on the same lesson again and evaluated on it and got all of the points. I believe I had only positive feedback for her. So that was very encouraging. We didn’t get lost the rest of the week which was also encouraging. And we got to spend time with our Westmoreland friends, which is always a blessing. Chloe taught the lesson on Friday and did an excellent job. It seemed like things finally turned around.
I figured since God didn’t answer my prayers the way I expected, he must have had a better plan in mind. And I’m not totally sure if there’s more to it or not, but to me it seems like just being able to work with Cathy this week is reason enough. I think she was able to help Chloe in ways that I wouldn’t have known how to since she is a more experienced director. God may have had other reasons for guiding us to Westmoreland County this past week, I trust that he answered my prayers the best way possible even if I don’t know the reason.
Basically this week I learned that it’s important to be both flexible and proactive, that God is always in control, and that prayer is super important to ministry. Chloe and I had to be flexible on the first day when no one showed up. We were willing to not go through with club for that day. But we didn’t just sit around and decide not to do the club, waiting for kids to show up, we went out and were proactive as well. We invited kids. We didn’t everything we could do before moving onto the next option. I learned that God is always in control. I trust that he always hears my prayers and I have to continue trusting in him even when he doesn’t answer them the way I planned on him doing. It doesn’t mean he’s mean and just doesn’t feel like helping me, it means he has something better in store. And I learned that prayer is super important in ministry. Chloe and I definitely felt some spiritual attack this week, and we both knew that in part, it was because we weren’t praying enough. I mean sure, we prayed when we wanted kids to show up. But we weren’t really making prayer a priority and we need to do that. We need to be sure to involve the Holy Spirit in the Kingdom Work we are involved in, because without his strength, we have no chance at success.
This week started out terrible. But God somehow managed, like he always does, to turn it around and use it for his glory. I’m so glad I serve a God that can turn awful weeks into great testimonies.









